My son at the park this morning before school. He’s my youngest child of the seven, and is in 5th grade. He still likes to say: “Dad you wanna watch a movie with me?” Oh, how those days can be numbered when you’re not paying attention.
This morning I was on the phone when he departed to head out for school. I hung up and didn’t like that I missed saying goodbye, so I put on my shoes. I looked outside and he was almost at the park so I walked down the street without my coat to wish him a great day. As I approached, I snapped this picture.
Watching him on that swing humbled me like I have been many times before as a father. How many more times will I be able to see him play on a swing I thought? How many more times will I be able to hear him say; “Dad I made some popcorn, would you like some?” Or “Dad I have a band concert next week can you go?”
Oh, how I have failed him and my kids many times. Concentrating on work or what I deemed important, while missing the simple opportunities to push my son on a swing while making him laugh at my stupid jokes. Not today though...I pushed him on that swing and was very grateful to be alive and see the joy on his face.
As I pushed him, I thought about the love of the moment, the love I have for him, and the fact that eventually he would not want me around. That happens because kids have to discover who they are and it’s also when parents learn about humility and letting go. It’s not always easy to let go, but when we think about our own adolescence years it all seems to make perfect sense. Kids have to discover who they are, make choices, and learn about how they fit into this thing we call life.
After he got off the swing, I gave him a hug and told him I loved him.... he said he loved me....as he keenly looked over his shoulder to make sure his schoolmates weren’t watching as they approached the park. 😊
Lol...yep, those days are surely numbered. Enjoy them while you can.
Hello! I'm John. A father of seven kids, veteran, and I love to write. I write about whatever comes to my mind at a particular time. We all have our crazy, but it doesn't mean we aren't normal. We're just human.